feelings i am powering through, 4-6 of 10

4. my right breast is an entire cup size smaller than my left breast. maybe half a cup size smaller. this is normal but i don't like it. this makes me look terrible. as if my asymmetrical nose wasn't bad enough. this is terrible. everything is terrible. everything between my cheekbones and my ankles is terrible. why can't both breasts look like the left breast. i will only show people my left breast. i will never take my shirt off again. 5. i have no money. there is no money. where do people get money. how will i ever have money. how will i ever retire. how will i ever go to the doctor again. how will i ever pay these bills. a year ago i did not have debt and now i have debt. i do not want debt. how will i ever have money. i have no money.

6. i have to fold these clothes and vacuum these floors and put away these dishes and clean this shower. i never have time to do these things. not doing these things makes me a failure at life. i am a failure at life. i have a dirty shower. i want my shower to be clean but i do not want to clean it. i am a lazy failure.

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