this was in my journal, in the scribbly handwriting that i don't usually go back and read because it's almost always something i don't want to revisit. but i did. i especially like "you never stray as far as you worry/think you do."
please don't be too upset. be a little upset, but also be proud. you didn't cry tonight (unlike sunday night).
you're not fucked. even though you said "entirely & irrevocably fucked" in that email about tegan & sara, you are still right here.
you never ever stray as far as you worry / think you do.
irrevocably fucked who cares. what the stupid fuck even is that game.
respect the respect & hold back on the familiarity of doomed shit. you're above this.
get above it now.
listen to a new song.
stay right right here.